Yay

I finally found some sleeping pills that work!! And well yeah I'm happy cause, damn I really needed to sleep, but now I'm always sleepy...oh well I'll have to deal.

YAY My birthday is in 2 days!! Un-YAY I don't think I'll have a party... I'm really not in the mood. My family knows and and there won't be a surprise party. You see when I say "NO" that means that if they don't listen to me they'll get in trouble...hehe I'm evil and scary when I'm mad! I do want the presents though. YAY PRESENTS YAY!!! 

Problem is that It's birthday season for my family. It started yesterday with my cousin Maria, mine's in 2 days and after that well let's just say I'm going to spend a LOT of money on presents!! T_T

Not to mention that College is draining me of every cent I have...and well it's draining my brain cells too....T_T 
Oh well...

Ok, I have nothing important to write about ...so I'll just keep writing stupid things till I come up with something!!! YAY



Ok let's see...OHHH!!!!

Well I'm totally obsessed with Buffy The Vampire Slayer....AGAIN!! Like I told sis, Buffy used to be my favorite tv show!! it was all I could think about...then I got into FFVIII and forgot about it for a while. Then like 3 weeks ago I was watching videos on Youtube and found one about Buffy and now I'm like:

YAY Buffy YAY!! 

Ok, what else? Oh, I was talking to Robyn a few days ago and somehow my crazy mind came up with the idea for a club!!! YAY

UFI that means UnitedFreaksInternational..... yeah I know...I'm crazy sue me!!

Almost a week without sleep...

I look like Sh%$ and I'm so damn tired...and I still can't sleep for more than 15 minutes!!!!
I'm not sure what to do anymore...my doctor gave me some sleeping pill but they don't work...he said I might need a stronger prescription but I don't want something stronger....one of my friends had the same problem and next thing I knew she was addicted to sleeping pills....


and she died because of it...

So I don't want anymore pills... doctor says I'm  stupid(we've known each other for a long  time so yeah I don't mind him calling me stupid...cause I can call him "bastard")  and that "I should just take the damn pills before I faint and hurt myself in the process." Easy for him to say...he didn't see one of his best friends die because of an overdose!

2:00 a.m.....damn...

Title: Fated Love, chapter one - Reunion of souls
Fandom: FFVIII
Characters/Pairings: Rinoa/Squall
Rating: PG
Warnings:  Mild swearing.
Summary: After we got out of time compression, we came back to Balamb Garden and lived happily ever after… yeah right… but actually, that’s how I though it would be……I guess I was wrong.

A/N: Ok, out of boredom I decided to post this old fic of mine -which I haven't finished yet- I  posted on FF.Net it had ten chapters but my English Really sucked when I put the first few of them... so I'm trying to fix the stupid thing and maybe get a little inspiration in the process ^_^

Now I'm not that bad at English anymore but I still have ways to go....and yeah I don't have a beta so read at your own risk!

So here it is! 

YAY Hi!

I'm sooooooooooooooooo bored!!!!! T_T I finally get some vacations and I'm broke! I can't go anywhere and well I probably wouldn't if I had the money. Why? well I wouldn't be able to talk to sis if I go somewhere else and I don't like that!

Anyway I spend most of the time at my grandmother's house and at 6:30 I have English class(yeah I forgot to mention that) I get out of class at 8:00 and I get to my house around 9:30 I talk to sis and then I try to sleep. I guess it's not that bad but I'm not a patient person and during the afternoon I have nothing to do!! I think I've said this before but I don't get along with my family, so staying at my grandmother's house all afternoon is horrible! I could stay in my house but I live an hour away from CEVAZ( that's where I take my English classes) and it's like 20 minutes from my grandmother's house and I have no car at the moment so yeah....

Changing the subject.....Writer's block.....Damn I hate it! I can't seem to get any good ideas for my stories....T_T  So out of boredom I'm editing the earlier chapters from my story Fated Love (which I haven't finished yet....stupid writer's block!!) cause when I started writing my English REALLY sucked, I'm not saying it's perfect now but it's much better. Anyway, I hope that by fixing the chapters I can get some inspiration back, and who knows maybe the cure for writer's block it's to write no matter how awful it comes out. The idea is keep trying...wow that was too deep for me...yeah people I'm dumb!!!^_^

I found some old poems I wrote for my English class!!! YAY I think they suck but sis says they're good so YAY 

( YAY Poems YAY )

I'm broke T_T like really really broke...I don't even have money to pay the internet bill.....and well like I told my sis on the email I sent her to let her know...well 

NO INTERNET MAKES KAT KILL PILLOWS!!!! 

^_^ I need internet to live!!! My mom tells me I need "HELP" but hey I'm not into drugs, I don't have any eating disorder, I'm a good student and I'M the one who pays the DAMN PHONE BILL!!!!!! uh...sorry ^_^  

Anyway my point is that at least I'm not into those things so why can't I be addicted to internet!? I mean it's one addiction that's not going to kill me right?

Well classes are over in 10 days YAY!!! I still have three exams to take before that though T_T but yeah.... I just want classes to finish NOW!!! I'm tired, you know I'm insomniac right? well that's the thing, I haven't been sleeping well lately when I get to sleep I'm always dreaming and never get enough rest and I'm in a bad mood.....Now if you ever see me when I'm in a bad mood...



 ....RUN!!!!!!


how do I get rid of the anger you ask? well let's say my pillows suffer a horrible death....so yeah I write the name of the person...or people  I'm mad at....and well I'm sure you get the rest ...hehe 

but yeah the thing is I'm running out of pillows....

I feel like Sh&%! T_T  


My head hurts, I have a fever and I can't stop coughing! Why? well I kind of had an accident involving a pool... ^_^ Still I have to go to college and damn I have a lot of things to do!! Have to go Bye! (Long entry huh? ^_^

Ok, so there's this guy I like...we've been friends for about 5 years, but he went to live with his aunt for a couple of years...now he's back and he's changed a lot...just one word: HOT 

He called me a few months ago, and asked me to go on a trip with him...I said no...  and well had I known where he was going(ANGEL FALLS!!!!)  and how different he looked...well you get the point. Thing is he's here again and damn I really like him! but I'm afraid of telling him and losing our friendship... that and the fact that he saw me kissing another guy this morning!! 

Enter Ricardo.... he's my classmate a good friend of mine. We met a year ago... and well I had a boyfriend back then, so he never told me he liked me...until this morning...and then he kissed me. 

NO, I DID NOT KISS HIM BACK... 

...but I didn't push him away either and that's when Chris saw us... I was so shocked... I couldn't even move ,so I didn't try to stop him when he walked away...

I'm just so confused...

College is killing me!! T_T 

I'm not sleeping well( when I get to sleep...I'm insomniac) and I don't have time to write anymore T_T....There's also my English course, although I'm about to finish it....well let's say it can be very boring sometimes, I mean most part of my english I learned by myself but I wanted to get better at it so yeah... I've been taking classes for about a year and 2 months and I still have 3 months to go T_T  Classes are getting more boring everyday...oh well.


I have an important presentation on wednesday...I hate talking in public....no choice anyway so whatever. 


I'll try to write a little during the  weekend...hopefully my writer's block will go away!!

I haven't slept for the last 48 hours!! It's not that I haven't tried...I've been trying very hard to sleep....but nothing. Doc gave me some sleeping pills....three words: they don't work!!!


I'm insomniac but I usually take naps between classes but I haven't closed my eyes for 48 hours! I can barely walk and I'm sure I'll fail today's exam cause I just can't concentrate on something for more than five minutes...but guess what? I can't sleep!!! I have to  go now....I have class in 10 minutes.....damn T_T

Ok so my sis and I are Crazy!! 

Well it's true....we have these weird conversations in which.....don't laugh ok?....we talk to eachother and to Final Fantasy VIII and RE4 and we do this almost everyday!!!

It's stupid and crazy but..............IT'S  SO DAMN FUN!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So we decided to post this " conversations" on Fanfiction.Net yeah....it's against the no-chatroom fics rule....but WHATEVER if they don't like it then it's their loss!!!

The Name of the story is FFVIII Random Converse and it's one of those stories you either hate or love and I love it!!!....well duh...I helped write it!!! LOL

A few days ago...my aunt died.She was like my best friend, always there for me when the rest of my family forgot about me.


 I was there when she died and I seriously thought about ....killing myself. I...didn't talk anyone for a few days, I didn't eat or sleep at all....until I was so tired that I fainted. I slept for almost 24 hours and when I woke up I made a decision....I wont let this be the end of me....I have people who care a lot about me and I won't hurt them by taking the easy way out!  I'm sure that's what my aunt would have wanted you know? for me to move on and continue with my life... 


I want to live and I want to be happy ....for her.


Also, I want to thank Megan and Jesus for helping me and being there for me. Thank you guys and please don't ever leave me, ok?

My Pc went nuts and won't let me get on!!! I can't use MSN/AIM/Yahoo DAMN IT!!!! but I can open any website so how come? I tried downloading MSN/AIM/Yahoo again, but nothing!!! this is horrible and I'm broke so I can't pay someone to fix it!!!!!!

I can't even review stories on FF.NET!!!! This sucks!!!!!!!!  *Bangs head against the wall* 


Um...I could ask my cousin to lend me some money......YAY!!!! I'll ask him!!! I'm sure he'll help me.....I think....if he doesn't I'll get MAD!!!!!!!!

Ok so...one of my friends is sad about her break up with her boyfriend. I try to make her feel better but one of her friends it's making her feel worse!!!! 

I love my friend and I don't want her to feel sad, so I sent an IM to her friend and she's acting like a bi$&%!!!! I just told her who I was and she went into bi$&% mode....so I tried to talk to her like civilized people and she started acting worse than a bi$&%!!!! Really is there something worse than a bi$&%? well of course but I wont say it here.....damn it!!!!!!!!! SHE REALLY PISSED ME OFF!!!!! AND THAT'S NOT A GOOD THING CAUSE I'M EVIL AND AHHHHHHHHHHHH! WHEN I'M MAD!!!!!! 

So I blocked her, before I could get really evil and say things to her that I shouldn't tell to someone who I'm pretty sure is (much)younger than me!

YAY!!! I'm new here!!!YAY

I'm 18 and I live in Venezuela. That means I speak spanish and that my english sucks!!!UN-YAY...I'm a law student and I like to write/read fanfiction. I write for Final Fantasy VIII and I love Squinoa fics!!!YAY Oh and I love to say "YAY"

I have 13 sibblings!!!! 12 of them are related to me but we don't really get along. My sister Megan(We're not related but she's my best friend) is more family to me than my real sibblings. Meg's a fanfiction writer too!!! We met on Fanfiction.Net. I was soo nervous when we first IMed eachother....well duh!! I'm her fan so when she IMed me I was like "OMG!!!! *has a heart attack* LOL

HI, Meg!!! Love you hun!!!

I'm a chicken when it comes to IMing my favorite authors *starts crying* and I have lots of favorite authors!!!!! Really there are a lot of great stories on FF.Net and that means there are lots of great authors too!!